Tuesday, December 18, 2012

Peppermint Mocha

If we were to sit down today for a coffee date, I'd start off saying, "Hi! How are you?! How are you doing this morning?!" I'd be pretty chipper and cheerful and we'd chat for a minute or two about easy things and maybe the weather, but then when you'd ask me how I'm doing, and then we'd probably get a little more serious.

I'd have to tell you that the past week has been a little rough, and that life is just too hard sometimes. I'd probably definitely tear up as I told you a little bit about the struggles that I've been dealing with this past week. As I sipped my warm Peppermint Mocha, I'd try to pull myself together so that I didn't start crying too much in the middle of this cute little shop.

I would want to be real though, and tell you what was truly going on, without getting too crazy and involved of course. But I'd want you to know the truth about my other job and the sadness this is all causing me. The sadness comes in waves though, and there are times I can ignore it and be happy; but then there are times in my car or talking on the phone with my Mama or boyfriend, that it gets the best of me and I start crying.

Life is just hard sometimes. Coffee sometimes makes it a little better though. And coffee dates with friends definitely make life better. I'd thank you for letting me vent a little bit, and for lending a listening ear today. I'd say thank you for being my friend and for your support and encouragement in this situation.

I do know that God always knows what He's doing, and we rarely do. But that doesn't make it any easier. I know God has a plan for me and He alone knows what comes next, but it's hard not knowing myself. But for now, as I make it through this, I'll try to wait as patiently as I can for whatever He is preparing myself and my heart for.

Know, my friends, that I'm OK through all of this craziness. Don't let this super serious post worry you too much. Yes, life is a little rough for me right now, but we all have to endure trials like this. I know I'll get through it and that I'll be just fine! Here's what I know I can hold on to during this:
"Count it all joy, my brothers, when you face trials of many kinds. For you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance." James 1:2-3
God is just working on my perseverance. For now, I just have to trust Him, and Him alone. In the mean time though, maybe I'll have to sit down for coffee or lunch with a few more friends and family members, so I can work through this with some of the people I love the most. Thanks for listening today though, blog friends. I really do appreciate the opportunity to get real on here sometimes (even though it's very rare that I'm so serious), and use this little space as an emotional outlet from time to time.


Sara Carbaugh said...

*HUGS* I know getting virtual hugs isn't the same as getting them in person but I hope it can cheer you up just a tad. :)

Hard times are hard but they aren't the end of happiness, they are the beginning. It's hard to see that sometimes when you're in the middle but you seem to have a great positive outlook even though t's a struggle so I think that will really help you get through this! *Hugs!*

Michelle said...

Owwww sending you a virtual hug! Sometimes you need to have a good cry and let it out. You'll feel a lot better releasing all that tension and emotion. And a cuppa a friends is all the medicine you need x

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